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Friday, January 24th, 2003
2:33 am	well here i am back in vancouver washington. i am only here to visit for the weekend. i wish that i had a better reason to come down here in the first place then for a funeral. it is weird, last night i was laying in bed and i thought about my grandma. life still goes on and she isnt part of it anymore. i dont like that concept. Current Mood: numb Current Music: rascal flatts-how your love makes me feel (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 2nd, 2003
3:30 pm	what the ... every day i wake up and i am gettin older. in two days i will be 23, what the fuck is goin on here. i dont want to get older, i just want to stay the same age for the rest of my life. oh yea i also need to get out of idaho. there are no jobs and all the girls here suck ass. new years wasnt bad, but it sure could have been alot better. well its time for a nap cuz im old and i cant stand not gettin my nap. Current Mood: bored Current Music: diamond rio-how your love makes me feel (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 2nd, 2002
7:22 pm	long time no talk... I love vagina... So what the hell is goin on with all of you that i havent talked to in a long time. alot of stuff has happened since i have been here in idaho. i was in jail for 3 weeks, yah pretty sure that sucked asses, a whole bunch of them. i no longer live in rexburg i now live in blackfoot with one of my good friends that i have known for like 6 years. my house in rexburg burnt to a crispy critter. i have a car now again, until it gets repoed. its a long story so dont ask. anywho. so yah, i dont do anymore drugs besides girls cuz i am on probation for a year. i am not supossed to drink but i still drink beer like water. well it is time to go to bed. so goodnight. gotta get up early to go to work. Current Mood: horny Current Music: take me home, country road/ john denver (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 16th, 2002
3:25 pm	its time... well tonight i am leaving for seattle. i am finally leaving rexburg for a while. it scares me but at the same time it is so satisfyin knowin that i dont have to put up with my dads bull shit for a while. i am goin to miss this place but i need to go. hopefully the time will come and go. when i get off the boat i am goin to go and visit some friends in vancouver(cort & dave), i cant wait. i dont know what i am goin to do after that, but whatever happens happens, right. i almost didnt go cuz i was really sick for a week and a half. it was crazy, but i am better now so its all good. the other night my brothers girlfriend invited me to go and hangout with them at this girls house and one of her friends wants to hook up, this shit always happens. i start to hangout with a girl and then i leave. i dont know why i do it but it just always happens. she came over last night around 10 or 11 and didnt leave til 5 this morning. i had fun and so did she. she is a great person to hangout with she is easy to talk to and she has a great smile. she is into me, she will actually want to know stuff about me. she is not like other girls that i date around here. the only thing wrong with the whole situation is that she has a kid, but i can get used to that. her daughter is soo damn adorable. anywho. i think that i am goin to go and play some pool with my brothers one last time before i leave tonight. so i am out. cort and dave i will see you guys in a couple of months. PEACE EASY!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: nervous Current Music: I wanna talk about me-Toby Keith (Comment on this)
Friday, March 1st, 2002
1:43 am	Well its been a long and tiring day, and as i let loose and relax by gettin high and drunk, the day just gets better. I know that i probly shouldnt be gettin faded, but today was kinda long and i am sick of the everyday bullshit and need to let loose. Its been a while sinve i have been high and it is soo much different then the last time, it is crazy, but i am loving it. I want to go to boise in the morning with all of my friends and my borthers but i have to work with my mom in the morning, so it looks like i have to stay here. Oh alright i will stay here and go to work and make money. I konw this has nothing to do with the subject, but I am sooooooooooooo high right now. Its great. I am goin to bed in a while after i watch a movie and eat some food. Current Mood: Fucked up Current Music: Toby Keith-I wanna talk about me!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:41 am	I'm Logan What X-Men Character are You? Current Mood: kinda drunk and high Current Music: strokin-clarence carter (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 27th, 2002
2:10 am	ok so i couldnt sleep. it doesnt matter anywayz cuz i dont really have anything important to do tomorrow like go to court or anything. i will probly get up and cut wood for our house that gets so freakin cold at night that you have to use like twenty thousand blankets or you will be a popsicle by the morning if you dont, and that stake i just ate was great. ok, i really am goin to bed now."goddamn dog" Current Mood: still blah Current Music: slipknot-fuck this world (Comment on this)
2:09 am	You are Fozzie! Wokka Wokka! You love to make lame jokes. Your sense of humor might be a bit off, but you're a great friend and can always be counted on.. Take the What Muppet Are You? Quiz! (Comment on this)
2:00 am	personally that is horse shit, and everyone who knows me knows that that is not true, but oh well. shit i am tired and my new dog is a pain in my ass. im goin to bed now, or i am goin to try. ~~head falls in disgust with the new dog~~ Current Mood: blah Current Music: johnny cash-sunday morning sidewalk (Comment on this)
1:59 am	Which Chess Piece Are You? Current Mood: amused Current Music: johnny cash-boy named sue (Comment on this)
Monday, February 18th, 2002
4:39 am	i love a great weekend... This has been a great weekend. I took a friends advise (cort), and instead of getting so shit faced i only had a couple of beers the first night i drank i feel better about drinkin again. The next night i had a lil more, only cuz i wanted to, plus it had been a while since i had drank last. Alot of the people that i hung around this weekend wanted to know about me and what i was all about. It was kinda kewl. It also kinda surprised me cuz since i have been here not many people wanted to know shit about me cuz they already knew who i was and where i came from, but i hung out with some people that i hadnt hung out with in like ten thousand years, or so it seemed. I got out of jail on Friday early enough to see my lil brothers district basketball game against shelley, we fukin lost, it was still a good game though. Oh yea, jail sucks, unless it is bannock county in pocatello. County jail there is a fukin joke. Anywho. All in all the weekend was real good. I just hope that next weekend doesnt suck. Current Mood: still kinda drunk Current Music: anything by 112 that is calm and slow (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 31st, 2002
12:11 am	life what is it all about... i really dont know what its all about, but i hope i can find some kind of answer soon. I think that i might have found a job, i dont know if i will get the job or not but its worth a shot. I dont like girls anymore either, i like women. haha. my dad is the biggest shit brick. he is so fuckin retarded. he wont listen to anything that i say to him. the other day i told him that the truck needed some anti-freeze and he didnt want to listen to what i was saying, then the heater stopped working. guess why? a lack of anti-freeze. the mechanics laughed at him when i told them that i said that is what the problem was. god i hate stupid people. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: system of a down: toxicity (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 5th, 2002
4:10 am	Holy shit...I'm 22 now...I'm scared... Oh alright im not really scared but then again i am. It seems that i keep gettin older and older everytime i turn around. New Years Eve, it already passed. Damn i think i might have missed it or did i, maybe i was so shit faced drunk i dont remember it. Yea dude its entirely possible. Life has and is still throwin me curve balls that i am stuggling to hit. First i am having trouble findin a girl then i find a girl but she is what some people would call a flake and a ho. Oh man i got the shitty end of the tp again. The only thing that really makes me happy anymore is snowboarding and alcohol, yea i know that sounds gay but its true. All of the people that i used to be able to call a friend is just a flake and it is makin me fukin crazy, i dont know what to do anymore. Yea my dad, umm pretty sure that i want to kick the holy fukin shit out of him most of the time and my lil sister is now the most whineyist bitch i know. Oh yea my mom (the real one), who? I have no idea why i am so bitter towards her, I just am. A job. What the hell is that? Yep still dont have one. I am so pathetic. Maybe i was supossed to come here and rot, who knows i sure in the shit dont. i cant wait to go snowboarding in three hours. Current Mood: lost w/ no sense of direction Current Music: puddle of mud, blurry (Comment on this)
Friday, December 14th, 2001
1:18 am	i love smoking... I don't know what it is about smoking, but I love it so much. Anywho. Today has been kinda boring. Last night was kinda cool, my brother and I stayed up all night cuz we werent tired. We made several trips into town to get coffee and smokes. I also went into this chat room and had a discusion about some interesting stuff. One of the things that we talked about was innocence...is it something that we strive to acheive or something that we can live without and i heard some interesting coments. Then we takled about my lil brother and what i should try to do to get him out of the states custody. Other then that it was kinda boring. I hate the weather here, ok so i kinda like it but it is snowing too much. I hate driving in the snow, cuz you cant stop as fast as you can when you are on dry pavement. Anywho. Its time for bed so i think that i am goin to go to sleep. Current Mood: horny Current Music: blurry by puddle of mud (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 30th, 2001
4:40 am	wow what a night... wow what a night. it has been so out of control, i dont know what to do with myself. i almost beat the holy living shit out of this kid who is like so much smaller then i am, but it is all good cuz he is a lil bitch. anywho. i am so fucking drunk right now i dont know how i got home. life sucks so fucking bad for me no one knows how it is. Current Mood: drunk Current Music: whatever (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 23rd, 2001
2:48 am	hahahahahahahaha this is the funniest shit i have ever seen, two drunk people talkin so much shit it is out of control. i am not really drunk. ok so i am. life sucks but since i am kinda drunk then its a lil bit better. i hate the way everyone talks so much shit and i cant say anything about it cuz i am in a whole nothter state that i cant defend myself. i love women but i dont know what to do about it. if i am not makin any sense at all it is because i am kinda not really here. i hate the fact that liz came down and i told her that i love her so much and when she came down here i didnt really show it. i dont know what is wrong with me anymore. it seems like whenever i try to get to know a chick she always seems to find a way to back out of any kind of date or anything of the sort. i am having problems with life. Current Mood: drunk Current Music: chill music (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 15th, 2001
1:00 am	I hate women. Ok so I dont hate them I just dont like most of them. Well, liz came down with dave, wow that was really different. I got in trouble cuz my mom didnt know she was goin to stay at my house for a day or two and she tripped so bad. I had to take her back to pocatello and I felt like a piece of shit. I love liz, but for some unknown reason I dont love anyone or anything like I used to. My life has not really been the best the last little while. I dont really know what I want to do with my life and I dont know which way I am headed. That scares me, it scares me alot. I dont want to get old and it is happenin wheather I like it or not. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 29th, 2001
11:02 pm	It has been a little bit over two months now since I moved back to Rexburg. I have made some new friends, but I still miss Vancouver. I am thinkin about takin a lil road trip at the end of september to go and see liz. I miss her so much, I didnt realize how much I cared for her until after I had left. I am now about to move down to Salt Lake City with my older brother. He will only be there til the end of september, and after he leaves I will be takin over his life. I will probly have his job, his car, his house, and his women. Ok so I am smokin crack if I think that I will have his women. Anywho. Life still kinda sucks. My younger brother manny is my new best friend. We talk about everything. Its cool. Oh yea I hate stupid lil immature bitches. They annoy my more then anything in this whole wide world, well not more then stupid fukin people. But they are up there. I love beer!!! Ha ha! I think in the time that I have been here I have drank more then when I was in tha couv. That is scary. I think in the last month or so I have drank almost every single night. I need to slow down. Current Mood: still hung from last night Current Music: anything that wont make my head hurt (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 23rd, 2001
11:11 am	what a day... today was the most interesting day for me. I know most of u dont care but i think i am goin to talk about it anywayz. My stepdad woke me up at 8:15am this morning, and as he did he proceded to tell me if I left the house to go and play softball with my friends to take all of my stuff with me cuz I wasnt goin to be able to come back in after I had left. His reason for this is because I have been giving my mom and him lots of shit about me babysittin thier kids. What my mom will do is she will say she has to go somewhere and she will be back in like ten minutes or so and she wont return for hours on end. She doesnt have the decency to call and tell me that she is going to be late or anything, she just wont show up. I am alwayz bitchin and moaning about it and they dont like it because they say that I am lazy and I dont do shit at my house. Ummm, ok. Yea while I watch their kids I also clean the kitchen and the rest of the house and when I am done with one thing the kids mess something up and then I have to clean it again, so it doesnt really look like I do anything at my house. If I have something to do then it doesnt really matter even if it is really important. They dont care. Anywho. My stepdad told me what he wanted to say and I told him to get the fuck out of my room so that I could pack my shit. He left and I packed my shit. My friend kim came and picked me up for the game. It was great kim and I were in the shitiest mode before our game, it was awsome. Ok, so I am lying. Anywho. We played softball most of the day. Later in the afternoon after all the games were over we went to some guys house and sat there for like ten minutes before we left cuz it sucked sittin there. We went to dick hannah and hung out for a while. Left there and went to tony's house. Went and picked up my lil sister, and now we are here at corts. I love my life. I think that I am goin to be gone with in the next week or so. I cant wait. I have so many mixed emotions going through me right now. I dont know if I want to stay with my girlfriend or not, cuz there is someone else that I kinda have my eye on, ok so there is a couple. I dont think that there will ever be any chance of me and these people hookin up, so I am not goin to get my hopes up. Now there is a great idea. Current Mood: irritated Current Music: whatever (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 20th, 2001
5:14 am	life... This evening while sitting at good old Denny's, I thought about all the different and fucked up things that I have done in my life. I also thought about all the stuff that I could try and do to change the outcome of some of it, but I couldnt really think of anything that sounded good. So being bored I started to write a letter to my x-girlfriend. It didnt get very far before I stopped myself and started to write other things about my trials and tribulations through out everyday life. I also tried to be anti-social this evening, but it didnt work as well as I had anticipated. Every time that I would get started writting someone would come over and start talking to me and disrupt what I was trying to do, I didnt mind the company, but I really wanted to be alone and just write. As always Micha'l ingored me, but it didnt bother me as much as it usually did. I am glad that she is happy with what ever she is doing right now. I am also sad at the same time, knowing that she dosent want anything to do with me, but then again I am also glad that I didnt get involved with her. She is one of the most fickle females that I have ever met in my life. That is one of the reasons that I am glad that we didnt go farther then friendship. I found out the other night that she has major head problems, and that is the last thing that I need right now is someone who has emotional baggage. On another note, Becca and I had a very interesting conversation about life and everything that goes with it. Thank you Becca, for listening to me and all of my stupid ass problems. I really enjoyed everything that we talked about. Oh shit, I am rambling on, who cares. I dont. Current Mood: drained Current Music: clay walker (Comment on this)